Okay, so reading this season’s spoilers for my favorite reality TV show — the Bachelor — is not my daily dose of happy happy happiness.  In fact, it was so terrible.  But alas, the day must have had some perk to it, right?  Eh, no not really.  It was actually a rather gray, dull, day.  What a way to start off the new month, huh?   So much for being on a happy trail.

I think the happiest part of today is that it is the first day of the second month of the ‘new me.’  Today I realized that I’ve tossed a lot of my goals and resolutions right out the window.  Remember the challenge?  The bracelet that kept switching wrists?  Yea.  It’s sitting on my window sill.  I haven’t worn it since the first week of January.  And I complain.  A lot.

I’m upset about having no money, stressing over my relationships and keeping myself up until 2 in the morning with a long list of anxious thoughts.  Today I reminded myself why I set out on this journey, my journey towards a happier life.  And maybe February will be a successful start.